I know I have not been good about keeping up with my blog. I think I've been avoiding posting because I have so many mixed emotions about my life and future right now. Several things have happened since my last post.
I went to see my ob/gyn for my annual exam and I took that time to speak to my dr. about my fertility issues. He ran several tests and even did a sonogram. Findings came back as expected, normal on all fronts. Except for the fact that my dr. thinks I may have PCOS. He gave me lots of info and even referred me to an RE. I called and made an appt but I have to admit, I'm very nervous about my appt with the RE. On the plus side I may be able to finally find out what's wrong with me. I took one of those online PCOS quizzes and I scored fairly high. I guess the possibility that I have PCOS is very likely but that does not necessarily scare me. At least I will know once in for all what is wrong with me. I have mixed feelings about this journey I'm about to embark on. I'm excited to get the ball rolling on fertility treatments but at the same time I'm very nervous that this journey may lead to NOTHING! It just seems that NOTHING is exactly what I have accomplished on all baby related fronts.
One of my close friends said something to me that's really been on my mind. She said hope is the last thing we lose. The problem with this is that I feel like I lost hope a while ago. So what do I have if I dont' even have hope? I guess I'll find out soon enough.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
Words should be used as tools of communication and not as a substitute for action!
I found the above quote and thought it was perfect for today's post :)
I know I've been MIA this past week but I've been really busy at work plus my mom was in town for the weekend. Things have been good this past week, my hubby organized a little get together for my birthday on Saturday. Most of my family and friends came over to celebrate with me. I had a lot of fun and didn't even get depressed when both my best friend and my sister in law arrived at my house with their new babies. The conversation turned into babies 101 but only for a few minutes so I didn't mind. How could I when babies are just so darn cute and they have those fat little cheeks you just want to keep pinching!
On another note, my sister made some calls last week and setup an appt for me on Friday for my annual exam. She said somebody had to make the call and if it wasn't going to be me, she would gladly do it :) Thank God for great sisters! I really did want to make an appt but it's just one of those things that I kept putting off, plus I had to find a new doctor and I definitely did not want to deal with that.
I plan to tell the doctor that we have been trying to conceive for a while now and I also plan on asking him to refer me to an RE. I have decided to stop talking about getting help and to actually get the ball rolling. Once I have that referral, I will immediately make an appt. I guess having yet another baby-less birthday has inspired me to do something about our fertility issues.
Ironically, AF is now 3 days late. I took a test last night but I got a BFN. Not sure what's going on. Oh well...I'll just have to see what the doc says this Friday.
I know I've been MIA this past week but I've been really busy at work plus my mom was in town for the weekend. Things have been good this past week, my hubby organized a little get together for my birthday on Saturday. Most of my family and friends came over to celebrate with me. I had a lot of fun and didn't even get depressed when both my best friend and my sister in law arrived at my house with their new babies. The conversation turned into babies 101 but only for a few minutes so I didn't mind. How could I when babies are just so darn cute and they have those fat little cheeks you just want to keep pinching!
On another note, my sister made some calls last week and setup an appt for me on Friday for my annual exam. She said somebody had to make the call and if it wasn't going to be me, she would gladly do it :) Thank God for great sisters! I really did want to make an appt but it's just one of those things that I kept putting off, plus I had to find a new doctor and I definitely did not want to deal with that.
I plan to tell the doctor that we have been trying to conceive for a while now and I also plan on asking him to refer me to an RE. I have decided to stop talking about getting help and to actually get the ball rolling. Once I have that referral, I will immediately make an appt. I guess having yet another baby-less birthday has inspired me to do something about our fertility issues.
Ironically, AF is now 3 days late. I took a test last night but I got a BFN. Not sure what's going on. Oh well...I'll just have to see what the doc says this Friday.
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