Thursday, September 24, 2009

Cycle 1 Update

Just wanted to give an update on what has been going on with me. I am currently on my very first 2WW! I'm actually nearing the end of it :) We did a round of clomid + trigger shot. Because I'm so impatient I've already tested about 4 times (10DPO, 11DPO, 13DPO) and I've yet to see that BFP. Surprisingly I haven't been devastated by the BFNs yet. I think it's because right now I can still tell myself "it's still too early". I am going to test once more tomorrow which will be 15DPO. We'll see what happens.
On another note, as luck would have it as soon as we started our first medicated cycle, my DH loses his job. He is very bummed about this but is out looking for another job as we speak and I know in my heart that all will be okay for us. It's like I was telling a close friend of mine earlier. I feel as is god is doing some reshuffling around in my life. I am just going to let him do all the rearranging that he needs to do and will then enjoy all the good that comes out of the changes. We're going to be alright!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Frustrated with my RE

I went in for a sono today and it turned out to be a waste of time. I was scheduled on CD12 to check how I am responding to the clomid. Well after my sono Dr. G says it was too early to really get an indication of my response and said I needed to come back on CD14. Shouldn't his staff have known to schedule me on CD13 or CD14? Not only that but during my sono Dr. G kept asking me things he should already know. For example he asked me was I doing IUI or timed intercourse...shouldn't he know this? Then he asked me was this my first clomid why couldn't he take a few mins to go over my chart before I walked in? I know he was really busy and it was Labor day and all but I still feel like I deserve more attention than what he was giving me. I know that because I'm doing clomid w/timed intercourse I'm not as high on his priority list as say an IVF patient but I'm still a patient. I'm beginning to question whether I need to look for a new RE. Not really sure what to do here since he is the first RE that I have seen and therefore have nothing to compare him to. I really like his staff and usually feel like I'm getting great service so maybe today was just a fluke. I have another sono scheduled for Wednesday morning. I'm going to see how that goes but if I'm getting the same kind of treatment I will definitely have to talk to him about how I feel.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

There's always a silver lining!

It's been so long since the last time I posted but I promise I'm going to get better at this ;)

So after many dr appts we have finally began the treatment phase of our ttc journey. After extensive conversations with our RE regarding IVF and IUI we decided to take baby steps and are going to try a couple of rounds of clomid & timed intercourse (so romantic). I have been on clomid for 2 days now and I have to say I'm not really experiencing the symptoms I've read so much about. My husband is nervously waiting for me to become a hormonal, mean, emotional bitch but I'm glad to report that has not happened (yet!) I actually did experience something weird yesterday. I was watching Step Brothers and caught myself being on the verge of tears. There's one scene towards the end where Brennan's brother is having a childhood memory and for some reason that just got to me. I'm going to go ahead and blame that on the Clomid :)

I am supposed to start using OPKs on Saturday and then go in for a sono on Labor Day at 8:30am. Is it sad that I'm secretly hopeful? On the one hand I keep thinking that since we're not really doing anything but taking Clomid we shouldn't expect much but another side of me is saying "Clomid may be just what you needed all along". I am going to give this method 2 or 3 shots but no more than that. If after 3 cycles we have not had any results, we will be moving on to IVF.

Want to hear some great news about our ttc journey (yes, there is a silver lining)? We found out my insurance will cover about 3 IVF cycles!! This is why we don't want to spend too much time with other methods when we have the funds to do IVF. Let's hope we don't need more than the 3.